Sunday, May 13, 2007
i'm not well. neither am i alive, nor on the face of the earth.
but i'm not dead or in mars either.
conclusion: i'm not alright.
i'm really very sorry to all those who are worried about me. but, you all shouldn't get worried. it's not worth it.
i'm very sorry to mommy. i'm not exactly feeling mentally well. and i've practically treated mothers' day like one particular bad mood day. and it doesn't really help since i'm currently at loggerheads with my sister.
i'm sorry videoworld clique darlings. i've practically contradicted myself. but i was truely, really very excited about 14th of may.
i'm sorry to all those whom i've avoided/ignored.
i'm sorry claaar. for not being of any help. i really feel very bad about that. and i detest myself for that.
life has suddenly turned meaningless. i want to cry, but i don't think i've any more tears left. let's see how i've used up all my tears alright. i came home on friday afternoon and cried myself to sleep. then i went to watch corner with love, and i cried again. on saturday, i cried while watching corner with love. and then at night, i cried myself to sleep. today, well, it was an improvement. i've only cried during corner with love. who knows if i'll cry myself to sleep later.
and no. i'm not crying because of being under the influence of corner with love.
you know what. it's really tiring, being optimistic all day long. and what's the point of always being happy and cheery no matter what happens? do i really bring joy to people's life? or am i just annoying them?
i'm beginning to stop believing in things that i had always believed in.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:48 AM